Do You Really?
Do you really want to live your life that way? Do you?
Do you always want to run away from any heart that reaches to yours? Do you really want fear to dictate the trace of your life? Will you allow fear to fashion your future? Your future memories? Do you always want to run away from possibilities and hope in favor of safety…isolation…loneliness?
Do you really?
Will you always flee from fire? Why not set yourself ablaze? Would you rather sit alone, high and dry, or wade into the beautiful ocean? Yes, there are waves and tides out there, sharks out there. There is blood in the dark depths. Still. To wade into the very lifeblood of the planet, to hear the ocean’s song, to feel the the moon's pull and earth’s power surround you, to shine and shimmer and glow in a liquid skin, is that not worth the risk? Do you really need to be that safe?
Do you really?
Will you allow the pain of the most painful memories to shutter your eyes, smother your lips, render you numb? Which is it to be? Numb to anything and all? Or simply feeling…everything? Do you want to live or do you want to die?
Do you think that you’re the only one who fears? We all have our fears. We win/we lose. It happens all the time. Do you really want to skip the gamble? Miss the dance?
Do you really?
Do you always want to run away from any heart that reaches to yours? Do you really want fear to dictate the trace of your life? Will you allow fear to fashion your future? Your future memories? Do you always want to run away from possibilities and hope in favor of safety…isolation…loneliness?
Do you really?
Will you always flee from fire? Why not set yourself ablaze? Would you rather sit alone, high and dry, or wade into the beautiful ocean? Yes, there are waves and tides out there, sharks out there. There is blood in the dark depths. Still. To wade into the very lifeblood of the planet, to hear the ocean’s song, to feel the the moon's pull and earth’s power surround you, to shine and shimmer and glow in a liquid skin, is that not worth the risk? Do you really need to be that safe?
Do you really?
Will you allow the pain of the most painful memories to shutter your eyes, smother your lips, render you numb? Which is it to be? Numb to anything and all? Or simply feeling…everything? Do you want to live or do you want to die?
Do you think that you’re the only one who fears? We all have our fears. We win/we lose. It happens all the time. Do you really want to skip the gamble? Miss the dance?
Do you really?
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posted by Jonas | 1/30/2007 12:34:00 AM
11 Comments:
Jonas, my answer to this question of yours, even though I am so full of fears I sometimes tremble with them is......
No I don't, I want, no I HAVE to run forward, with my arms reaching out, with my eyes wide open to miss nothing, with my heart exposed to all that there is to feel.
Thank you, this is a very good reminder of what happens when we forget how very wonderful it is to open ourselves up and move past the fear.
I'm a fight-not-flight person. I'll admit that I learned late in life how to do that as too many of my childhood and early adult years were about just letting things happen to me. But, now, fight I do.
Sometimes this has been quite literal (I was beaten up in Tenerife). But they didn't walk away unharmed either.
And I'll always stand up and fight for what I believe in. Doesn't mean I'll always win. But I will always fight for it.
I've felt plenty of pain in my life but none of it will stop me from reaching out for what I want. I'm strong. I don't care about winning or losing, I care about living with hope and belief. I care about being honest and truthful in how I feel.
And Sunny, I'm here to hold your hand when the fears make you tremble.
As the song goes:
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Fiona, you are incredibly strong...and wise...and loving.
Sunny, keep those arms reaching out!
No, because I've been hurt by someone that does life according to fear's dictates. I'd never. My heart aches for them, and all they'll miss. But I'm not going to miss anything.
I picture you, Ms. Green-eyes, dancing your way through life. You have no idea how much I admire those of you who do just that.
Jonas,
Hi...Just wanted to say that I am new to the blogging world but have bookmarked your blog. I am working my way through your archives. You have a distinctive style of writing, and your approach is quite different.
A pleasure to read.
Why, thank you, Wordsmith! I'm truly flattered.
it seems people keep stumbling upon the treasures that are your words... :-) ...keep on inspiring!
can I row through the waves and still experience them?
right now I'm afraid I'm still asking myself all the questions you propose--and I'm going through a thinking phase, anxiously awaiting the answers phase.
Yes, Sweet Amaris, the cosmos certainly works in mysterious ways. Angels appear from nowhere, bringing comforts; some move on, some stay...it's all good.
Although I'm certainly no expert, I'd say it's a good bet that if you search for answers long enough, you'll find them. It's just that they may come later than you expected. My deepest truths, my most needed answers, began arriving after five decades of questions. Then again, I'm slow.
I like this post, I came by to read it again today. Your words "Do you really want to skip the gamble" pushed these lyrics into my head:
You got to know when to hold em, know when to fold em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
What can I say, Jonas, my mind is always full of lyrics!!!
I like that (among many, many things) about you, Fiona.
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