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Saturday, August 01, 2009

Things I know

I know what is IS.

I know I’m not everyone’s “cup o’ tea

I know the meaning of “she’s just not that into you

I know I’m not the “cat’s pajamas

(I don’t know exactly what that means)

I know how it feels to be “second (or third) choice

To be something sub-prime

I know, too well, what “love ‘em and leave ‘em” means

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She came to know me just enough to know she didn’t want me

I came to know heartache.

I know more than I wish I knew.

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Blogger Ponita in Real Life said...

Been exactly there myself, Jonas. xoxo

Sat Aug 01, 05:38:00 PM  
Blogger Jonas said...

I've little doubt that most of us have come to know the exact same things, Ponita.

Sat Aug 01, 05:50:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


Sat Aug 01, 06:02:00 PM  
Blogger Jonas said...

No worries, Deb. I've got lots o' band-aids friends.

Sat Aug 01, 06:21:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Friends are what matter Jonas, but you already know that. Have you bought a motorbike yet?

Sun Aug 02, 08:53:00 AM  
Blogger Cheesy said...

It's okay my friend... cats don't wear jammies so it's all good.

My feeling is even if you are 3rd or fourth pick.. you are part of someones life right?

Sun Aug 02, 08:55:00 AM  
Blogger secret agent woman said...

Stop channeling me. :)

Sun Aug 02, 08:55:00 AM  
Blogger shadowlands6822 said...

Could it be that she didn't know herself? How can anyone know someone else if they fail to know themselves first?

It isn't fair for you to take on all the blame as a personal flaw. In all relationships, responsibility is a two way street.

As far as Cat's Pajamas, who wants to go through putting them on your cat anyway?

Sun Aug 02, 11:46:00 AM  
Blogger Jonas said...

Oh, Dear Hearts! You are most kind and caring. Methinks a bit o' clarification is in order.

This entry was not about some new angst or fresh heartache. Rather, it was a midnight musing that simply appeared (prolly while I was channeling Spy Queen). I wasn't sad at all. It's a statement about acceptance and with acceptance comes peace of mind (something I've been sorely lacking/needing for a few years too many). I feel as if I'm healing and growing happier. Granted, I'd loved to be swept away by tsunami waves of happiness, but I'm not averse to these intermittent drizzles. But thank you all for you words of support!

Sun Aug 02, 10:27:00 PM  
Blogger Jonas said...

Deb - the cycle will be a winter/spring purchase. I've a few contractual obligations to satisfy this summer and I'm trying to rebuild my strength such that I'll have the stamina to roam next year.

Whoa, Queen Cheese! My cats ALL wore jammies. Yours don't!?! And yes, I still bask in the love of friends and what little family remains.

Sorry, Spy Queen, I just can't help it.

Ah, shadowlands, I agree with all you wrote, but I hope my earlier clarification clarified matters.

You're right, of course, my cats kinda hated the whole pj's at bedtime routine.

Sun Aug 02, 10:35:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Better she knew you just enough to know.....rather than let it......go too far. I just had to tell someone this...and it was painful for the both of us.

Sun Aug 02, 10:40:00 PM  
Blogger Jonas said...

You make a good point, Ms. Hurricane.

Sun Aug 02, 11:17:00 PM  
Blogger Jay said...

Usually, just when you think you know something, someone proves you wrong.

Keep your eyes open so you see the miracle when it happens.

Mon Aug 03, 10:13:00 PM  
Blogger Cheesy said...

My kitties sleep commando... just like their MOMMERS!

Mon Aug 03, 11:30:00 PM  
Blogger Jonas said...

I sleep commando, too...but the furfaces just look SO darn cute in their Dr. Dentons!

Tue Aug 04, 12:07:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I also know we can't be all things to all people and that sometimes even painful things are for the best (even though it takes years to realise it).

An eccentric former neighbour of mine used to put her white Persian cat in a pink terry toweling bodysuit at night. So maybe cats wear bodysuits, not pajamas. :D

Tue Aug 04, 08:32:00 AM  
Blogger Jonas said...

You're quite right, Jay. I hope to finish my life with eyes wide open in absolutement amazement.

I tried silk smoking jackets for my cats, Selma...but they found them to be...oh, a bit pretentious, I guess.

Tue Aug 04, 09:13:00 PM  

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